For the last week I’ve been sorting through all my old work and trying to get my online shops off the ground ~ finally!
I wanted to put a Full Stop on all the pieces that have been floating around for the last few years. I sorted out work for shops, for re-using and some to just file away. I have some really lovely vintage photos that I thought about putting on Etsy as downloads ~ I’m still in two minds about that.
Anyway, as I was going through it there was a lot I loved but it didn’t fit the general aesthetic of my current work. Part of me thinks just chuck everything online! But then I also think maybe I should be selective…I’m still mulling that over…
Looking at old work is proving to be quite interesting. Apart from seeing your progress/journey it can be great for producing new ideas and bouncing stories around.
I found some work I almost threw away but I’m now thinking of re-using it. So I’ve spent the last week, scanning, cropping, cutting out, and organising images instead of uploading to my shops.
So a bit of a “I have been doing stuff honest” lazy post today, hope everyone is having a good week!
I’ve bought quite a few arty books and magazines over the years. Books filled with lots of inspiration and techniques. A couple of them had a very cheesy “giving yourself permission” type of page.
You may have seen them. “I give myself permission to create/make a mess/be my authentic self….” etc. I always thought they were a bit daft.
“Do what you love” is something you see everywhere. But I’m going to admit that recently I have felt that what I love is really rubbish…lol. Whatever I try I’m always drawn back to collage. I feel it’s rubbish. Not when other people do but when I do it. It feels like I’m pretending to be artistic.
I love collages that other artists do. I think their imaginations and inspirations are amazing and I can look at peoples work for hours.
When I do it, it feels like I’m cheating. It’s easy and I’m having so much fun! My Etsy shop and blog has been through many incarnations and the only time I made sales was with my collages. Shouldn’t I be happy about that? I wasn’t because I felt like I was cheating. I wanted to tell people that all I’d done was cut out pictures and stick them together. My customers weren’t stupid, they knew that. But I still felt like a fraud. A fraud who looked at other artists’ collages and saw art, but couldn’t see it in mine.
Recently I’ve tried to do other things but I can’t get away from collage and I’m still learning Photoshop and having so much fun and I have so many ideas. I keep remembering a conversation with an artist on holiday in Wales a few back who told me to find my thing and “do it with Conviction!” she was so passionate she almost shouted it at me.
I think it’s all about intention and conviction. I’m intending to create art with conviction. I’m doing the cheesy thing and giving myself permission!
I’ve read enough blogs and spoken to enough artists to know that we’ll always feel insecure or even fraudulent. It won’t go away. But I’ll be doing what I love.